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Saturday, October 18, 2008

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 14:33:22 GMT

I'VE MOVED!!! :D

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 11:10:00 GMT

“外表平靜　是騙你騙自己
用微笑送你　還答應把祝福給你
忘了問誰收留我的心”
--想你想得好孤寂

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 12:32:57 GMT

Today went JE for movie with mum and 2nd sis. cannot go far cos both of us having test tmr =X
after tt went to arcade to play bball with them (:
very fun. hahas.
nothing much..
hom-ed for revision. hais.
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下雨天
作詞：LARA 作曲：張傑
南拳妈妈

下雨天了怎麼辦我好想你
我不敢打給你我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音變得好熟悉
沈默的場景做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

期待讓人越來越疲憊
誰和我一樣等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

怎樣的雨怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實沒有我你分不出那些
差別結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 14:29:45 GMT

Forget About Me
Little Bit

You said, it wasn't gonna be like it was before.
Then it happened again. 
Pushing me back out the door.
Thought it would be for real this time.
Love me forget about the signs.
So now what do i do?
Now that I know that we're through.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
If this how you wanted it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape 
The misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Too late, sorry.
I didn't have the chance
You said you were happy
Baby, I don't understand
Gave you everything you asked for
And was ready to give you a lot more
I would've given you the world
Right in the palm of your hand.

Refrain:
Wish that I could move on
Can't let go, it's too strong
Just like that and then you're gone
Was this how you wanted it to be?
Everything you had to say
Sent the tears right down my face
Now I'm trying to escape 
The misery

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Boy, my heart was true
And that you can't deny
Don't be a fool
And walk away from all the lies
It's up to you
'Coz heaven knows I've tried
Tell me you're still in love.

Chorus:
Why don't you love me?
The way I'd loved you
It feels so crazy
'Coz I don't know what I did to you
If you're gonna hurt me
Then do it quickly
'Coz I'm tired of cryin'
If you don't wanna stick around
Then, baby forget about me.

Forget about me
I really love you.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 10:37:20 GMT

Retirement of Duty ' o8

Tired. Really tired.
ROD'08 is over. o8.o8.o8, a date i'll remember forever.
4 years in np is over, so fast.
I still miss my cadet life. I still miss the times when corporal punishment was not abolished.
I miss my "drill fear" sec1 year. I miss my honeymoon sec2 year. I miss my "super bonded" sec3 year. I miss all my squad ICs.
Sec1years:
The time Qinhui said cold jokes on the first day of NP.
The time we were taught how to fall in on the first day of NP.
The time (Staff/Sgt?)Chiehyin told us to go down in pumping position & did not allow us to come up until she gave consent.
The time our squad ICs treated us really good although i did not know what was squad ICs until Sec2 =.=
The time we got scolded by (Staff/Sgt?) Poh Swee until all of us feared him.
The time we gave nicknames to different NCOs for easy recognition.
The time during ITC most of us vomitted during water parade.
The time we had hiong pts during ITC.
The time we held hands and ran to the old tree and back to the bball court to fall in in the old campus during ITC. (until we could fall in really fast.)
The time when we did not cultivate much squad bond & did not really care abt one another.
The time when Weikai pumped us and was smiling to himself. =/
The time we had to run to some NCOs and tell them 'I Love You'. =D
The time we passed rumours (actually is facts) about our squadmates liking some NCOs. LOL.
The time when we revised on drill commands after cca time and on saturday.
The time during ROD when i cried like hell seeing Staff Haoting salute to Sir Raymond for the handing over of Squad ICs' position...

Sec2years:
The time we hated our new squad ICs.
The time we were pumped 3o at one go for one person not bringing spec hooks.
The time when we all were PT freaks and cheered when we saw PT on the notice board.
The time when we like to self-initiate PT activities for ourselves after school.
The time when we were most bonded and active.
The time when we owed our ICs many pumpings for those absentees who had no reason for being absent.
The time when we prayed for Tuesdays and Fridays to come faster.
The time we actually owed near to 10000 pumpings.
The time we wanted to return the pumpings and we pumped 200++ with intervals of sit-ups and jumping jacks in btwn at one go. but we LOVE it.
The time we tried to break our own records for pt and try all challenges posed by our ICs.
The time when squadmates went for remedials and the squad was left with about 9 ppl and squadmates starting to cheer for us when we were running,
The time when most of the squadmates went to some S.Rajaratnam's funeral ceremony and did not go to NP act, while our dear IC wanted to go so badly but decided to take us for act instead, however saw there was only 7 ppl and he was tt pissed until we heard he broke 2poles.
The time when we were really afraid our squad IC did not want us anymore and me&peiwen decided to write an apology letter to him, with a super cute e-card attached to it. :D
The time we had to run to the red car to do something (I fgt xD.)
The time the whole squad shared one hershey kisses choc.
The time we spelled NCO Zi'Ang's name wrongly and had to pump his name out.
The time when we sang cheers during rainy days.
The time when we perked up when Sir AlanBong shouted command amd gave a solid bang despite being really shagged.
The time when we had 'ranks' on our NP tees during ITC's barrack inspection.
The time when Sir Raymond refused to take us for activities after we made him angry, Sir Alan took us for "macdonalds meal".
The time we chased Victor around the school campus.
The time we celebrated birthday for our IC.
The time when nearing ROD our ICs were scary and started to scold us and we all cried in the toilet.
The time we really felt loved by our ICs and we really love them alot. ^^

Sec3years:
The time our squadmates went to work then we told the truth and our ICs started laughing
The time YanYang was absent again & we gave a list of possible reasons for his absence. (go MosBurger/KFC/Mac work, tuition, dental appointment etc.)
The time we broke record and did 4oo jumping jacks at one go.
The time we did intensive PT & did a total of 210 situps and pumpings combined tgt, jumping jacks, followed by 2.4km running, after which we were given 20mins water break.
The time we had many times of full attendance.
The time we assumed leadership roles.
The time our squad almost broke apart.
The time we encouraged each other to continue to work hard....

We loved each other, and will continue to do so.
RVNP S3'o7, the extremists, will never break apart.. We can do it.
RVNP, Solid Sah! <33!

&Tambourine was a success! (:

Oh yea. Thanks Sec1, 2 and 3 for the gifts! esp my beloved sec3 sqd, we love your performance. Great Job!


                                                                            all the gifts. (:


                                                                    RVNP, Solid Sah!<3


                                                             thankyou bangbang squad! ^^


                                                                        card from the sec2s.


                                                                          content inside! :D


                                                       lightstick bangle from sec2s!


                      saving box from sec1s!with loads of paper hearts and sweets inside!& a 5-cent coin (:



                                                                     from our sec3 ICs! =D


                                                  cookie by peiwen, sijie and adna. thx sqdmates!^^


                                              cloth and cotton doll in pt kit! by my dearest sqd (: <33


                                                              from my sqd to their ICs!<33


                                           the booklet inside the teddy bear package. my fav!thanks(:


                                              my teddy&another doll in NPuni&stars in a wine cup!<3


                                                            close-up of the NPuni doll!


                                      side view of the stars in the wine cup!& pinkwrapper!<33


                                                                         Top View!


                                                  cute right. look like dad&son (:


                                                   my teddy!<33 &the legs gt the baby socks!


                                              the back of the fat teddy with flowery prints on shirt!

thanks everyone for making this ROD night for us possible. It was really great.
but who i want to thank most is my sec3s (sry but im biased. LOL).
cos i can see that you all really put in your utmost effort in planning this farewell event for us.
THANK YOU!<33

&they must have read my mind. cos i just told sylvia a few days ago i wanted a bear. :D yay.

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S T A Y O V E R !

After ROD, took 61 then 947 to sylvia's house for stayover! =D
girls who went there were me, lau, xinyu, chingxin, silin, rousi&pearly
&i accidentally stepped on some joss sticks while talking to rousi. sorrysorry.. cos rly nvr see =X
rousi walked over it too =X. then sylvia started to say she feel some cold air around her. dxmn scary T.T
we had fun there la! we talked&talked&talked then keep shhh-ing each other cos talk until very 激动 will suddenly talk v loud then sylvia's family sleeping.
pearly was super funny okay. keep saying things that made me laugh.
after tt we moved to syl's bro room to talk, cos his bro nt coming home.
we said alot of 废话. practically all girls' talk lol.
got air-con then feel very sleepy hahas. pearly went for a nap first. then i started to get v tired at around 2. then pearly woke up & told me to slp awhile.
for those who know me well, i'm known for being a piggy.
therefore, you all can roughly predict i slept through the night until around 7:30am when syl started to wake everyone up cos her bro came home le.
super comical scene.
Syl cooked spagetthi for us! dxmn nice~
we started to camwhore abit ( actually is alot.) after breakfast. LOL.
&i took many actcute photo of syl! =D shall post it up after i've uploaded it.
they then went to see friendster so i sian diao then fell asleep on the sofa. (I know I'm pig).
then after tt syl's mum need to 拜拜 so they woke me up & we left for west mall for 泡泡茶！
we sat down & talk & waited for lihui to come in the meanwhile.
&there was this Hello Kitty helium balloon super nice at the Xpress flowershop at the basement. LOL!
lihui also like hahas. so lau they all went to ask price. $15.70. actually still okay. cos very big (:
then we crap around &syl left soon after.
me, lau, cx, xy &lh went to food court there to sit&talk again. hhas
the talk became super emo. okay whatever. hais.
After that, home-d.
now i'm super tired.

手心
-卓文萱

我一个人徘徊在我们的海
闭上眼我还记得那一天看见的蓝
爱距离也分不开你送的贝壳还在呼唤
在耳边答应要给我未来

*那一天手心里的爱我放不开
等一个人多么孤单我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐
握紧了手心里的爱我勇敢了起来
当你回来的时候我一定要跟你说别再走开

我跟寂寞在比赛等你带我
手牵手一起去看全世界最美的海
泪不可以掉下来我学着向日葵抬起头
等待着最亲爱的你回来
抱着我称赞我的勇敢 Ooh...

*重覆

贝壳握在手心静静的变得温暖
就像是握住一点点答案 Oh...

那一天手心里的爱我放不开
等一个人多么孤单我一分钟又一分钟在忍耐
握紧了手心里的爱我勇敢了起来
当我祈祷的时候天使都不在
当我痛苦的时候也只好习惯
当你回来的时候我一定要跟你说

别再别再走开

was quite stupid to listen to this before ROD& cried. for some reason...
actually i cant forget.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 05:35:45 GMT

曹格-背叛

雨
不停落下来
花
怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀

爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹著空白
缺了一块
就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快

心
有一句感慨
我
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 07:37:20 GMT

为什么连默默看着他的机会你也不给我。。。
这次真的该放弃了。

世上最痛的事，就是知道了自己被身边的好友出卖了，却感受不到对他们有任何的恨。。。

-hurt.

thank you my friends..

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 13:07:32 GMT

I'm despaired.
&I don'tknow what to do.

原点
蔡健雅/孙燕姿

拥抱的时候心情有点痛也去提早感受到寂寞

离开的时候只听见沉默
除了沉默我还能怎么做选择
别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠
现在他在妳的身边就对他好一点

不要再让你们的爱败给了时间
既然遇见了永远就不要说再见
不要再让你们的爱输给了永远
我们曾经过那么多考验最后还是回到了原点

总有那一天相遇的瞬间
确定那些冷漠的从前已走远
别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠
现在谁在妳的身边就对谁好一点

我应该就走开就算感情还在
我应该就放开对他不再依赖

忘了曾有过的片段这是属于你们的未来

不要看到你们的爱败给了时间我能愿选择离别
没有一句怨言直到你能若无其事聊起了从前
我才发现彼此都了解默契是最宝贵的语言

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 12:52:30 GMT

或许如果你没有处处刻意向我隐瞒事实，我仍然还是会相信朋友始终是最重要的。。。
或许如果你把事实都告诉我，我的心也不会隐隐作痛。。。

我真的承受不了了，我也承担不起。
不要在欺骗我了。。我真得快要崩溃了。

我恨你我恨你我恨你我恨你我恨你。。

我真得很自责无法争取自己的幸福，但。。。我又能怎么样呢？
我不想朋友不开心，我也不想失去你。。。
我累了。。。

或许逃避是唯一的方法。。
真的好爱。。好爱。。。你。

--左右为难
死了算了。

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 14:26:34 GMT

a blog post after so long & it is written cos of a her. (<- you must be feeling quite honoured now.)

oh well. don't care about what i'm going to blabber about since this is written to vent my anger stress or whatever fking shit. brfore that, i sincerely apologise if i use vulgarities later on.

my life was okay until you came into the story. first bitten, twice shy. but i fell into your fking trap again. i don't know what's your motive, what you are trying to display yourself to others. I just want to say STOP IT COS IT DISGUSTS ME.

Recently, i came to know many truths which i don't wish to know. First time last year, that incident hurt me deeply, yet i've managed to start afresh a few mths before. Now you are hurting me with another truth.

Everything don't tally yet the puzzles fit together nicely. I feel that i'm living in a world of deceit and self-denial. I don't fucking wna know what you are doing, but just don't come and mess up my life. I'm already troubled enough.

Actually now i don't know whether i'm angry or sad. i just feel like crying, crying for my fucked up life, crying for the truth hit upon me. I just feel like giving up once and for all, but yet it isn't worth it. but not giving up won't change the fact... I'm tired.. i said i will wait, but i realise it isn't easy to do so..

why do things always reach the peak and drop to the bottom like nothing has ever happened? why do i always trust the wrong person? why do you like to act as if nothing has happened when something indeed had happened? why why why?

classmates, squadmates, family, friends. i'm starting not to know them. Everyone is becoming so weird, so hard to reach, hard to understand. Even my closest squadmates, I'm beginning not to know them. where's the trust and love we had between us in the past? Is it so fragile that it can be broken cos of a few minor characters?

Millions and billions of questions in my mind, but i don't wish to know the answers. I definitely do not think any of the answers will be a positive one.

Enlighten me.

I need my directions..